Is the glass half full, or is the glass really full?

Over the past week I've been on higher dosages of anti-seizure meds and that seems to have helped the severity of my episodes.  In short, instead of passing out I just get dizzy.  I'm getting a referral from a neurologist to "a specialist" and I'm like...  Uhhh, aren't you a specialist already...?  But I haven't gotten the specialists info yet so don't know when I'm seeing them yet...  More waiting.

BUT

I'm taking it as an opportunity to do something that I've always wanted to do.  Spend more time with my daughter.

You see, since I'm on short term disability for my illness I've got a reduced income.  And so I'm looking for ways to save money...  Well heck!  How about daycare!  So I'm saving money and I get to spend more time with my daughter?  The downside here is where exactly?

I know it's not a forever thing, but for right now, in these small moments I'm teaching my daughter the joys of playing 4-square outside, that she shouldn't cry when she doesn't get what she wants, that it's ok to stay in your pajamas all day (sometimes) and cereal is too "growing food".  Don't judge me.

I can't just go to the store and get things.


It's really odd that at this time in my life (on disability, reduced income, sleep apnea kicking my ass) I've gone and found a hell of a lot of happiness in what has been sitting right in front of me the whole time.

Reposted from Apr 4, 2016

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